My Mulan Moment
Hello friends! It has been a week since I posted my Spring Lookbook for 2017 and I wanted to reflect on this video a little bit.
First I have to give credit where credit is due, Keldon killed it with this video. Yes, he got a questionable amount of sleep while editing this video in record time, but I mean I think it was worth it. I know I always say it, but I'm so thankful to have such a talented best friend who is up for whatever. Clearly, without Keldon this video would not be possible.
Now, I'd like to explain the title of this blog post for a minute. I hope you're familiar with the best Disney Renaissance movie, Mulan. If you're not go fix that pronto, I'll wait... So, as a young lady I like to relate my life to lyrics. And as a nerdy young lady I like to relate my life to Disney lyrics. In Mulan the most powerful song is hands down Reflection. In this song Mulan expresses her upset with not feeling like she can be her honest self because of what her family and community expect from her. Though in truth, she doesn't even know who her honest self is. She sings "when will my reflection show who I am inside" and this is easily the most iconic lyric and sets up Mulan's character for the rest of the film- the film that you should watch because she's my favorite Disney princess.
Well, I'm sure right about now you're thinking what the heck I didn't come here to have some girl explain a twenty year old animated film to me and to that I say- I promise we are arriving at my point!
When I first watched this lookbook video I started to cry. Immediately I became surprised and I questioned what in the world was going on in my head to cause such an intense response to a four minute video of just me. Instantly Mulan's lyrics came to me. "When will my reflection show who I am inside" and with those lyrics also came more tears and a fuzzy feeling of pure joy. In all honesty I'm really freakin' proud of myself. I have always loved fashion and styling, but I haven't always loved myself or felt comfortable sharing that aspect of myself. Watching this video, a dream of mine for years now, just felt so right. I realized that I started crying because I remember the days when I felt so insecure and unsure. I would quietly play dress up and only imagine myself having the confidence to share my favorite thing in the world. Well now I've done it. With each new little adventure on this blog I feel more and more like my reflection shows who I am inside. And yeah, that feeling makes me smile like an idiot and tear up a little.
Clearly my situation isn't as dire as a young woman who set her matchmaker on fire. And I certainly didn't save China from the Huns. But watching this lookbook evokes a sense of pride and deep understanding in myself. And I can't help but relate all my feelings to Disney lyrics, in my defense there's a lot to choose from.
- Disingenuously Dressed